Tabula Rasa

I wrote tonight.

Something that I didn't have to turn in for class.

IT WAS AWESOME!!!

I love feeling this way. Why did I ever let other things get in the way of this feeling?

Not only did I write tonight, but I also went back and read something that I had written a few months ago to try to get my bearings. See where I was at... and I felt myself getting sucked in to the story. I couldn't stop reading it. Not because I was trying to see how many things were wrong with it or how much I was going to have to correct later.

I got sucked into the chapter I had written because it was...it was... it was GOOD!

I've made it a point to try to make mondays about motivation. (Good way to start the week,eh?) And there is nothing like reading something that you've written to remind you why you write in the first place.

So this weeks motivation is all about Tabula Rasa.

I'm adding the definition for those of you who do not know (And YES, because I'm just THAT nerdy!)

1

: the mind in its hypothetical primary blank or empty state before receiving outside impressions

2

: something existing in its original pristine state

Origin of TABULA RASA

Latin, smoothed or erased tablet

First Known Use: 1535

I'm thankful that each new day is a brand new "clean slate." I don't have to dwell on the mistakes and failures of the past, but instead can look forward to new growth and new oppurtunities...new ways to fail miserably and new ways to suceed exponentially!

Let tomorrow be the start of a grand new adventure!

Follow the Yellow Brick Road

That song has been in my head all day.

We're not even a week into the new year, and I'm trying to figure out how I'm going to manage everything in the coming year.

In 2010 We had some huge changes. We had another son, Thomas who is beautiful! but still keeping me up at night, I decided to go back to school to become a teacher, and then within the last few weeks I've decided to stay home with the kids during the day and work in the evenings. (And a 12 hour shift every Saturday) My husband lost over 100 pounds last year. I think the changes are good changes and I'm looking forward to seeing what the new year brings. But I do have a few regrets.

My reading and writing (anything not school related, anyway) really took a hit. I've missed just curling up with a good book without the words Go, dog, Go, or without hearing Mama, Mama, Mama, every 5 seconds. And I've missed writing. I've missed writing SO much!

I don;t know. I guess that's what new year's is about, looking over the past year and looking forward into the next.

These were a few of my resolutions last year.

*Making lists to help me stay focused. (I still make lists but my day revolves around Thomas and Steven so its hard to make a set schedule. Still a work in progress)

*Go to School (Yeah me! I got one!)

*Write every night. (School kinda took care of that. But this year I'm going to give up another hour of sleep to get it done. In Theory.)

*TV reviews. Yeah that didn't happen. Every one I wrote felt awkward and I was unsure of what I was doing. Plus it took WAY too much time. So maybe one day, but not now.

So this year, I really only have 1 resolution.

Follow the yellow brick road. Let life take me where its gonna take me.

Does that mean I won't have to work hard. Of course not. Dorothy did did a lot of skipping in her pretty red slippers.

When in doubt, I'll sing a song.

I'll meet new friends along the way, but I'll always be trying to get back to those who love me, who miss miss, who've made me, maybe even some who've broken me) I'll get back to those people who motivate me, who inspire me, who will never lie to me.

I'll resolve to forget the complicated and get back to black and white.

I'll follow the yellow brick road/ I may encounter a few flying monkeys along the way, maybe even a wicked witch or two...

But I'll stick to my path, and I won't stray. (Those damn poppy fields always look so inviting!)

I'll follow the yellow brick road, and I'll always remember that there's no place like home. Because in the end that's where all dreams begin, and where all dreams end.

Happy New Year!!!